Jan 10 22

Jan 10 22
...Slept in the treehouse last night. I went to bed early. 8 o’clock seems to be my hour. And then I wake up around 8 AM. Bad dreams all night, couldn’t find my cat couldn’t find my mom. Memory loss is so hard to explain to people.
... I told mom I would wait. And I did.
You are a monster in my life. And although you did some brotherly things for me that doesn’t take away the things you did to me, the things that still linger in my mind and keep me awake at night and keep me from getting close to people. You took so much from me that I will never ever get back. You were supposed to be my brother.?